It's here! It's here!

Aunt Flo has made her presence known!  I was pleasantly surprised to see her late last night and again this morning.  When I told my sister she was stunted that I was happy.  "Well I thought you were trying to get pregnant, don't you not want you period here?"  I had to explain to her that this meant a new cycle, a new start, a new chance.  I told my Dr. and she has my cycle day 3 blood work scheduled, and an HSG between day 5-11.  I am just hoping that this cycle doesn't turn out to be a lengthy annovulatory cycle like the last two.  Wish me luck that this cycle is the one, because if not I think we will be taking a break for a bit in case I need to get settled in a new job.

Weekend Recap

Well we had a busy week over here, apologies for the lack of posts.  Nothing new with TTC still on Provera for 3 more days and then hopefully a new cycle will start.

One good thing that did happen this week was food!  I made a few AMAZING recipes.  Unfortunately they were so good that I didn't even get pictures for them.  One of them was so good that it didn't even make it to bowls, we ate it out of the pot!

Sunday night I made a version of The Pioneer Womans tuscan bean and shrimp soup.  O   M   G! It was soooo goood.  Her recipe is on her page and what I did differently was to add ALOT more crushed red pepper, about 7 more shakes (I don't measure).  Then I had white beans instead of the beans in her recipe. I also double the tomato paste while I cut everything else in half because it's just me, my husband and a few hungry neighbors.  Also I accidently grabbed mustard greens instead of kale... I didn't like that I ended up picking most of it out. And for the shrimp, I just cooked it in the soup for a few minutes before devouring it.  Again, it was SOOOO GGOOOOODDD!

The next meal I made was another Pioneer woman variation, her turkey burger recipe.  I took a package of ground turkey splashed in some Worcestershire sauce, an egg, crushed red pepper (about 3 shakes), salt and pepper.  I cooked those on the george foreman while I made an avocado, goat cheese, cream cheese mixture.  This was yummy but a bit tangy for the Hubs.  I toasted the bagels, spread the avocado cream, picked one large piece of basil and then the meat and mmmmm.  Hubs even asked for leftovers of this one the next day and that does NOT happen.  He doesn't do left overs of anything.

I also made a different variation of the tuscan bean shrimp soup.  Hubs doesn't like shrimp, so he didn't eat any of the soup.  After I had picked out all the shrimp, as a left over dinner I added in shredded chicken and it was like a whole new taste but still delicious!

I am planning on making some more yummy meals this week.  Some kind of egg salad sandwich, chili, and maybe a taco night. Any good recipes that you have that I should try?

Not feeling alone

This weekend I did some blog hopping.  The Bump updated it's TTC blog roll and I took a look around at some of the blogs.  I am so glad I did.  As I read about the struggles that other women are going through I felt like I was reading my own thoughts.  It was difficult to read how others are also having trouble with creating a new bundle of joy and I do hope that all of those women will soon be granted the sweet blessing of a baby, but while they are still on this journey I feel a kinship with them.  I felt for the first time "Hey they know exactly how I am feeling, better than I know, they are able to put it into words."  As I read about the possible road we have ahead of us I couldn't help but cry.  Cry for the unknown, cry for others, and cry because it felt good to let it out.  So thank you for all those out there blogging about your struggles with TTC.  Thank you for allowing people into that part of your life and thank you for making me feel like I'm not alone in this.

 For the first time this weekend my husband said the words "some people can't have babies, and we might be those people"! OUCH! That hurt.  2 weeks until our 1 year of TTC mark comes around and I am feeling hopeful surprisingly.  I finally received the negative blood test from the doctors office and started Provera today.  There is actually a plan in place, it's not much of a plan but it's a plan.